One More Week

So, I know I've really been slacking on posting. I'm working on it...just dealing with a lot right now. I had a breakdown last Monday and realized that school just isn't working for me anymore. The level of stress that I constantly feel isn't normal at any point in time, let alone 24/7.

As of right now, I'm going to finish out this semester (only one more week of classes) and then see where I'm at with grades. I know some of them are going to be bad. Not because I didn't try, but because something really just isn't working anymore with my brain. Honestly...I'm depressed and I need to get help. So after this semester is over, we're going to go from there. Probably go to part-time next semester or even take the time off to focus on working and getting the help I need. After that, I'll come back in the fall and finish out what I started. Graduate by December.

It feels like it's taking forever...but at this point, it's not about when I graduate...it's just about being sure that I DO graduate. And hopefully I will be able to accomplish that goal.

Of course, this has all messed around with my weight loss like crazy. I just can't focus on anything right now, but am forcing myself to with school and work. Hopefully, after this week, I can get things together enough to refocus myself on exercise and eating right...although, I have to admit, the stress makes it so I'm not super hungry all the time now.

I gotta go get ready to finish this day out...it's going to be a rough one. I can feel it already.

xoxo

Focus

That point in the semester in which I really start hardcore focusing in classes has begun and I'm happy to say this has easily been my best semester in doing it yet far. I'm determined to get my work done & excited about graduating in May. But oh so nervous at the same time!! I mean...it's SCARY!! The real world is so close that I can taste it...but is it something I'm ready to fully take on??

As for weight focus, that's been pretty good too. I've always found that when everything falls in place at the same time, things get a million times easier. The stress on my shoulders just lifts up and I feel like it was never there. It's amazing...and it's happening right now. I feel more organized. I feel less tired all the time. I just generally feel better overall.

I'm still looking into rejoining Weight Watchers. I just hope I can actually do it this time. I've tried it at least twice before and ended up quitting. What's going to be different about this time? I'm ready to make the change...but, like graduating, it just seems so scary. I don't know why though...were ya'll scared when you started your journeys? Why??

xoxo

Weigh-In

This is going to be a quick post...

I weighed in this morning at 276. That's great that I lost a pound, but only one pound after 2 weeks is not the greatest thing to hear. This is all taking a lot longer than I thought. I think I might go see a doctor and ask what's going on and what I'm doing wrong.

It could honestly be because I'm under so much pressure right now. I haven't posted because I haven't had time. Between projects, tests, and work, it's hard to find the time to work out. I'm doing what I can, but I feel like my eating isn't BAD, but it isn't great right now either. I need to find the balance.

Hopefully next week I'll be posting more of a loss. I'm off to study for some more tests before class, but I'll post again (probably tomorrow) once all this work is done with.

NCSU VS. CINCI TOMORROW!! 7:30 PM!! CAN'T WAIT!!

xoxo