Mindset

I'm sure I've said this before...but tonight I realized how true it actually is.

I have never been so determined to get this weight off. I was hungry tonight around dinnertime, but didn't have a ton of food at home. My dad is always asking why I don't go to Food Lion or Harris Teeter instead of fast food. I even went and tried to figure out the points for if I got fast food, but in the end, I realized it's not worth it. I can't help myself if I keep giving in. So I went to Food Lion and got a few Smart Ones for the next few days instead. Ate one tonight & it was so delicious!

I don't want to sound conceited, but I have NEVER been so proud of myself. I realized how different my mindset is this time around. How I actually want to make the change and how it's not just going to happen on it's own.

I have so many people supporting me and backing me. I don't want to let them down, but even more, I don't want to let myself down. Even now, I feel like almost crying because of how different I can feel this time is.

And I have to thank all of you. You are the biggest and best support system I could have and reading what your comments and your posts absolutely inspires me to keep on going. So PLEASE keep on commenting!! Keep on posting!! Keep on motivating & inspiring!!

xoxo

I Can Do This!

Time to get back to work. I feel like I let myself take this week off from focusing, and although I wasn't eating completely as bad as I used to, I wasn't eating crazy well either.

I am DYING to be at 276 by Wednesday, so I'm going to up the workouts & watching what I eat like crazy for the next few days. Right now, I'm definitely on track to be at 276...so I just really need to make it happen!!

It's gonna be tough. School & work are slowly starting to get busier...and it's just gonna get worse as the semester goes on. But I can do this--I just know it. I've never been so determined to figure out how to balance everything in my life. I feel like this is the time to learn to juggle things because in a year, I'm not really sure where I'll be...but I could be doing things that are a lot more stressful than what I'm doing now.

I'm determined to graduate in May. There IS no other option at this point. I won't allow it. I need to continue working hard at work to show that I can do this & hope that I can get promoted within the company after graduation. And then the weight just has to happen now because I can't deal with feeling like everyone is judging me on my weight when I walk outside.

Basically, my goals at the moment aren't just about weight--but life too. But, for the first time in a long time, I'm sure of myself. I've never had a mindset like this before and it all just seems so clear to me now. I CAN set my mind to anything I want to do, it just takes some hard work. Nothing comes easy--but the rewards can be wonderful!

xoxo